I came to Chennai on the 7th Feb technically (at arnd 0100 hrs). My stay here so far has been a total roller coaster ride. No, am not complaining. It has been a drastic change, a total phase shift of 180 degrees, from what it was in Delhi---unhappening, slow, dragging! So many things are happening at such a jet speed, that it sometimes chokes me. It is one of those not-very-smooth-phases of life here for my people at home. There have been troubles, ghosts from the past haunting, avoidable arguments, tears. And I am not the mute spectator, am the cadmium rod.
I have always loved and looked forward to living with my people in Chennai. This is more like my second home. Things are always on the move, and there is always something to learn everyday. Tersely, I love being here. And I would be a totally ungrateful, blithe human being, if I don't lend a shoulder when it is definitely needed. Sparks have been flying from all corners. Heated discussions always end up in a broken heart or a hurt one. Heights of helplessness are reached and tears let out all the hurt and hatred. Gosh!! There IS so much happening.
Amidst this emotional quagmire, where everyone is caught, I am one person, standing tall. No, am not glorifying myself or detaching myself from any of the things. I am one person who is not judgemental or conclusive about anybody or anything. Just like the boron / cadmium rod absorbs the excess neutrons to prevent uncontrolled fission from taking place, I am trying hard to provide a cushioning effect. In my presence, things are at abeyance, they can't turn monstrous. It's like, am absorbing the feelings and rays of everyone and thereby preventing them from getting any worse. This is what am best at....a patient listener, and sometimes a vent out for pent up emotions.
Am not callous, am not indifferent. It's just that I care and I love everyone here. This transient bad time will surely go away. I am from the old school of thought which says, "Everything's gonna be alright." Undying optimism, eh????
